skewed view

Who are you?

I see you as disgusted; you put up with me cause you made me, but love is definately a choice. When I'm a mess, you stand with your arms crossed smirking at my pitifulness.

These images are so strong. They aren't truth... I hope, I would pray, I would tearfully plead, but they are the reality in my mind as of now. I can't go on like this. Reveal yourself to me, show me your love, that grace that I hear of. What I read in your Word is even interpreted through this... lie. If the truth of your love is indeed the truth, I need to know it!!! No one else can tell me, no one else can show me, I can't even convince myself... My brain is cloaked in a cage of lies.

What do you think of me when I'm at my worst? And I mean my worst!!. How do you treat me? How can I discover this? Teach me to know you! I cannot expect to make you into who I want to, but I can't continue believing your someone you aren't. Teach me who you are.
I cling to you no matter the outcome.

Friends: please pray that I will see Jesus for who He says He is. please pray that He reveals himself to me. I cannot continue on much longer in the torment that I endure daily. I need the peace and deliverance from fear that an encounter with what I cannot imagine would bring... love.

~ could I ever dance with him in an intamacy laced with pure love and delight? ~ FREEDOM!!!
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soul cry for meaning

What is it in ourselves that cries out against meaninglessness? Why is it seemingly impossible for us to recognize our lives as worthless, or meaningless... and not just shrug our shoulders and go on without caring? Why does it demobalize and destroy us so much? What in us needs life to be more... than just a miserable existence?

haircut

Yeah... my new hair. :)

Jesus...

Give me eternal eyes...

Jesus is my Lord

I do not bow to fear. Jesus is my Lord and I will proclaim it

I used to bow to fear; to tremble in its presence; to listen to its thoughts, and follow its instructions
But I have renounced my allegiance and it has no right in my life, my thoughts, or my actions. Jesus has released me from its grip and I will follow Him. I will pattern my ways after Him and obey His commands. He commands me to believe in Him and to love others. His Spirit living in me is what will define who I am. Jesus is my Lord.

"The only fear I will have is the fear of the Lord and the only voice I will hear is that of the Lion of Judah!" ~ A prayer by Danielle

Fear may try to convince me that I will always belong to him. But I refuse to believe his lies.
I will proclaim that Jesus is my Lord
Jesus... You are my Lord.