In Love

My Quiet Time

Sitting in a cloud of pretense
going through the motions
an empty religious practice
my words are hollow and meaningless
What am I doing this for?

As I reach despair...
Your love slices through like a sword.
Casting aside my protective habits
to reach my innermost being
you set yourself down beside me

my eyes are wide - YOU'RE REAL!
my ears are ringing - did you speak?
aimes, you are beautiful, can I sit with you?
Did you just call me aimes?
Your eyes are twinkling
yeah... do you have a problem with that?

I shake my head to clear it - GOD?
You smile
You are so big! so beautiful
Your beauty is pure... so clear
Your love surounds me like a hug
I tremble... confused, excited

My Bible sits in my hands
Open it! you whisper
As I read you point to things and explain
we laugh together, we cry together
That's so cool! I yelp, You're so cool!

I start to talk...
I tell you what I think, feel, desire
You listen and you CARE!
I try to be serious as I go thru my "prayer list"
but you keep making funny comments
ruining my composure... I giggle in delight

I am overwhelmed with your presence
What was I doing before?
This is what it is supposed to be!
You are everything I ever wanted!

But then it gets hard....
You start pointing to my heart
and asking...FOR IT
You want change.

That is where the fake,
the going thru the motions
became desirable
It allowed me to go unchallenged
there is comfort in that....
but it is shallow and so sick

You stand as I come to grips with myself
You reach out your hand - come away with me
I offer you myself... everything I have is yours
Come and live Amy.

I will teach you step by step...
and yes, tear by tear,
but you will no longer exist in your hole
come away with me!

I brace myself against my self hate
What do I have to lose anyway?
I swallow my pride, my fear, and my selfish desires
averting your eyes... I reach for your hand
my arms tremble, I have no strength

Your laugh is so deep and rich.
It fills me inside and
shoots out my fingers.. my toes, ears and nose!
I laugh too as I swing in your arms
and you hold me close

Are you ready for an adventure Aimes?
I can't even speak...
I just gaze up in complete satisfaction
for you see...
I'm in love!

In love love love!!!