changes

Its interesting, as I look at my life right now, I realize that this last year has been like me hanging in the balance between childhood and adulthood... and in a way, as I step over my 21st birthday, I know that I will be embracing my adulthood. It is more than just my age... it is the place and journey that I am in my life.

I live in a singles world right now. All of my good friends are single. What will it be like when I'm married? What will it be like when I live in a world of married friends?!! The idea kinda scares me... I don't understand it at all... and I suppose that is why it frightens me. However, when I was a child, I didn't understand what it would be like to live outside my home... to love people outside of my family. And now... I've only discovered that my home is wherever I find myself sorrounded by what I've discovered as my family - Anyone who loves me - as He does. It is all so strange... and wonderful. It gives me a peace... realizing that change can bring such joy