A Heart to Love

LAST NIGHT

She smiled at me... I smiled back
our conversation started out slowly,
cautiously... but as it built, I knew!
Her eyes looked full into mine
The connection was... breathtaking
Warning bells went off in my head
as warm affection rose in my chest
Distance must be kept!
She was but a fleeting acquaintance
I was meeting her on Friday... must say goodbye on Sun
I met her gaze with steady one in return
We still didn't know eachother
but the conncetion was complete
Tears of memories sparked gathered at the back of my eyes
Through the rest of the evening we
shared knowing glances, fond laughter
and grasped eachother's hands in prayer
The night came to a close
I fought with my feelings... but it was for naught
When I looked at her - I loved her
As we exchanged e-mail my heart hurt
I wanted to know, love, and encourage her
But, wouldn't it be better to forget???
Long distance is hard... and painful
"Bye Amy! See you Sunday!"
She mad a movement as if to embrace me
but hesitated... trying to find where I was at
I wanted to weep. Everything in me...
longed to wrap my arms around her...
to communicate the love I have for her...
... so unexplainable... this love...
but I hadn't shown that kind of affection
to anyone for almost 2 months now...
- fear won over -
"Bye Melissa... Sunday for sure!"
and I turned away... wishing I hadn't
Now tomorrow I must say goodbye...

Sometimes I wish my heart were incapable of love...